the REAL me.

Firstly, let me say that, if you've already read my previous post and realized how bad my memory is, you should understand when I say that I've forgotten the topics I'd wanted to discuss for the "blogging frenzy" thing. Perhaps they will return to my brain some day, but I'm not too sure.

Well anyway, this entry wasn't originally meant to be the opposite of Go ahead. Laugh., but I guess it ties in nicely. But the thing here is, this time, I wasn't the one who was crying. Come to think of it, I haven't been crying for myself for quite some time already. The previous time I cried was when I was watching some damn sad movie, I think. I can't even remember the previous time I cried for myself. But I am a rather emotional person, and can cry when overwhelmed by emotions, even if I'm not sad.

It's somewhat hard to say everything that I would like to say, given that I know who reads my blog. But one thing is for sure. To protect the identity of that particular individual whom I'm discussing about, I won't be using his name. I can't even say where he's from, or people will start guessing.

It was the first time I saw him cry, and to add on to that, I was the only one to witness him cry. His will always seemed so strong, that he was one of the last people I would expect to see crying. I suppose that just goes to show that everyone has a soft side.

What happened was, a very disappointing event occurred to him, and that was the trigger for the sadness he had kept within. And he actually told me about certain things that I cannot divulge here, even though we aren't really the closest of friends. I was quite startled when he just burst out crying. Well I mean, if it was a girl, then I'd just lend her my shoulder to cry on, that is if she doesn't mind. I don't know, but embracing someone who is crying seems like a natural thing to do. But anyway, all I ended up doing was try to console him. But I'm not that smooth a talker, so.. but I suppose I did fine to help calm him down. First I told him, "Don't cry..", but then I realized he's really sad, so I said, "Just cry it all out.." Haha I guess I'm really inexperienced..

I know, my blog entries have always been very vague. But what can I do? Identities have to be protected, regardless of anything else. But the lesson here (if you can consider this a lesson in the first place) is, we shouldn't keep our emotions bottled up until it all erupts during a breakdown. It does help to share them with others, instead of bearing all the load by yourself. But guess what? I'm a hypocrite for having said the above. This is one of the few things that I cannot practise what I preach.
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