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Saturday, March 03, 2007

Departures. 

Wow someone actually reads my blog enough to feel that I haven't updated in a long time. Well I'd like to use the excuse that I've been busy, but truth be told, I was just plain lazy. I've got quite a few topics to touch on, actually. But I was too busy.. busy procrastinating. Been playing quite a bit of DotA and FFX. But well, here I am, finally blogging a new entry again..

Departures are never a happy thing. They may not really be sad, but they certainly won't be happy. Except for those times when I thought "Good riddance!" when someone I don't like leaves. In any case, life is all about meeting new people whom you'll eventually leave, or whom eventually leave you. Which sometimes makes me ponder if it's a good idea to get too close to some friends. But I suppose it's always a good idea to make more friends than to think about them leaving in the end.

Yesterday was the funeral of my foster grandfather. He had passed away on Monday. I'd just visited him with my family on Sunday afternoon at the hospital, and although I'd say he didn't look well, he certainly didn't seem like he was going to die anytime soon. He had liver cancer, with the tumour being 14cm big. The sad thing is, I didn't get to say goodbye when I left the hospital. My sister was so hungry that she almost fainted (literally. Her blood pressure was extremely low), so I had to bring her to eat at the food court. And it happened so suddenly I didn't say goodbye.

Although I was shocked at the news on Monday, I wasn't particularly sad. I suppose it was because I wasn't really close to him, but even so, I wasn't happy either. I suppose that was kind of "DUH!". Departures are never a happy thing. But I guess things will be different when I go visiting my foster grandmother the next Chinese New Year. I suppose the place will be much quieter and less lively without him around.

Come to think of it, was it really necessary to say goodbye? I am being reminded of LTA Kevin's departure from Charlie. On his last day there, he just disappeared and sent an SMS to the specs to announce his departure, because he hates goodbyes. I suppose it's not a very good feeling to say goodbye, especially when you know that you won't be seeing the person for a very long time to come, or maybe you may never meet again.

I wonder what I will do when my turn comes to say goodbye to Charlie. I won't mention names here, but there are certain specs who've considered extending their ORD so that they can look after the men during Crescendo. But the question is, would the men appreciate such a gesture? I've asked one of the men from his section, whether he will think of his 2IC during Crescendo, think about how nice it would have been to have him there, and he answered that that would be unlikely. I'm not saying my men also feel the same way, but sad to say, either case, I already have my own plans.

I don't know if it's a good idea to say the following on my blog, since I know some of my men read this. When you're too nice to them (at least I think I am), you end up getting too close to them. And unlike the previous few departures, I think this one will be sad.

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