the REAL me.

That's "Stay the Same" by Joey McIntyre. I've loved this song since its release in 1999. The music video is rather.. no link though. Yes, it's old. But I don't categorize songs by whether they are "new" or "old". I prefer "nice" and "not nice".

Eugene (Yes, your name is finally significant enough to appear on my blog. Happy?) said that he and Nicholas think I've changed. For the better, it seems. Which is weird, because I haven't noticed. Neither have I put in any effort to change. But either case, I'm glad that things are the way they are now. At least between me and the rest. Or most of them, at least.

Some relationships may have flourished, but others.. Well, I guess some things are better left unsaid. It's amazing how some problems can just surface so easily. Human emotions are hard to fathom, to say the least. I've tried talking to some of those in conflict, but they don't seem the least bit interested in relenting. I wonder how much longer this can go on.

I've never wanted to change my behaviour. Because I believe that I do not need to change myself to suit the world, as long as I do not do anyone any wrong. Which was why I insisted on commanding by respect, not by fear. Which ended in people having the impression that I've "crossed the line". But either case, now that we have turned ops, no one really bothers with punishment anymore. I haven't changed much, really. My interpretation would be that their impression of me has changed. But one thing's for sure. I'm still not interested in them talking about Battlefield 2142. FPS games are just not my type.

Even though I've never wanted to change my behaviour, I've always tried to change the way I look. I suppose it's human nature to want to look one's best. Especially in a world where everyone judges everyone else by the way they look (read: superficial). Or at least at first. I'm guilty of this crime too, but I'm sure most of us are. And it doesn't really help when I've never been attached. I'm not despo, really. It's just that, it makes me feel that something must be horribly wrong with my looks when EVEN SOME PEOPLE are attached. Because many people have commented that I'm a nice guy. Hoho. Bragging about myself on my blog. Well anyway, if there's nothing much wrong with my character, I suppose I don't look too good. How nice of me to display my level of self-esteem (or lack of it, rather) on my blog. Imagine if my future potential employers were to read this. Well, I have absolutely no doubt in my abilities. It's just that I think there's much room for improvement for my looks.

I'd wish to stay the same too, if only I looked better.
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