Sunday, October 21, 2007
Early Matriculation?
Went for the NUS early matriculation briefing yesterday. It was surprisingly short, less than an hour long. But I suppose all the important information was given. Now it's simply up to me to decide if I should matriculate early. I've somewhat made up my mind to do so, although the details still need to be figured out.
I hate turning points. It's fine for me to make small decisions every now and then, but those that will affect my wellbeing significantly, or may have serious repercussions in the future, really give me a headache. Figuratively, that is. And with the saying that "opportunity doesn't come knocking twice", some decisions are even harder to make.
I've been a wastrel long enough. Having had my fair share of doing things on the spur of the moment, I suppose it's time I stop giving up things that I start trying. Or perhaps it's because the things I've tried, I end up realizing I don't actually like doing. Like how the basketball that I bought ended up rotting in my storeroom. Or how the class websites I started on ended up dead. Or even giving up on my previous blog.
It's time I started trying harder. I can say I don't like ball games. I can say updating class websites is a chore and no one really bothers anyway. But blogging, even if others don't really read it, I suppose it's something good for myself. Helps me keep track of how I'm feeling throughout different times in my life. And I figured that after having not updated for a month, people who do regularly visit my blog may end up disappointed.
There's many things I want to do, besides blogging. Like writing the game book. The planning has gone on for long enough, and I hope to get started on it soon. But of course, I have other commitments that I don't wish to give up on. I'm sure writing it will be something that I will like. And it may even end up being popular. But fame isn't really what I hope to achieve, though I do wish to be recognized for what I can do.
It's amazing how far I can link from the simple topic of early matriculation. But I suppose one thing is clear. I need to start my life now. For the past almost 20 years, I have merely been existing, not living. Sure, I've had happy and sad times, did many things with my life, but in retrospect, I don't see how my life has been fulfilling. Grew up watching TV, studying, playing games, telling lame jokes. I bet if I were to die, no one will remember me anymore 10 years down the road. The most painful thing isn't death, it's being forgotten by your loved ones. Either way, I suppose I should start making myself more useful to humankind.
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I hate turning points. It's fine for me to make small decisions every now and then, but those that will affect my wellbeing significantly, or may have serious repercussions in the future, really give me a headache. Figuratively, that is. And with the saying that "opportunity doesn't come knocking twice", some decisions are even harder to make.
I've been a wastrel long enough. Having had my fair share of doing things on the spur of the moment, I suppose it's time I stop giving up things that I start trying. Or perhaps it's because the things I've tried, I end up realizing I don't actually like doing. Like how the basketball that I bought ended up rotting in my storeroom. Or how the class websites I started on ended up dead. Or even giving up on my previous blog.
It's time I started trying harder. I can say I don't like ball games. I can say updating class websites is a chore and no one really bothers anyway. But blogging, even if others don't really read it, I suppose it's something good for myself. Helps me keep track of how I'm feeling throughout different times in my life. And I figured that after having not updated for a month, people who do regularly visit my blog may end up disappointed.
There's many things I want to do, besides blogging. Like writing the game book. The planning has gone on for long enough, and I hope to get started on it soon. But of course, I have other commitments that I don't wish to give up on. I'm sure writing it will be something that I will like. And it may even end up being popular. But fame isn't really what I hope to achieve, though I do wish to be recognized for what I can do.
It's amazing how far I can link from the simple topic of early matriculation. But I suppose one thing is clear. I need to start my life now. For the past almost 20 years, I have merely been existing, not living. Sure, I've had happy and sad times, did many things with my life, but in retrospect, I don't see how my life has been fulfilling. Grew up watching TV, studying, playing games, telling lame jokes. I bet if I were to die, no one will remember me anymore 10 years down the road. The most painful thing isn't death, it's being forgotten by your loved ones. Either way, I suppose I should start making myself more useful to humankind.
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